Preschool: The Melt Down
By: Kayla N.
“In that moment she became a full blown kid, and I couldn’t have been prouder or more emotional.”
“Send your kid to preschool it will be good for them” this is what everyone told me before I sent my child to Pre-K. Which to be honest may have been the scariest day of my life. If you’re a mom like me you prep, prep, and prep some more when you’re anxious. So you can only imagine the weekend before the first day of school how I was acting. All that I can say is that a chicken without its head had nothing on me.
I was anxious, sad, mad ,scared,and happy all at the same time. I thought that I had finally lost it because I was going completely crazy. Then I called a few friends for moral support and made a Facebook post asking other moms for their advice. Not to long after that, I realized that I was as normal as every mom that I knew. We were ALL going psycho about the first day of school! The supplies, the uniform (in my case), the hair, the earrings and so much more were overwhelming. All weekend long if I felt there was a teachable moment in anything that we did I was using it to explain to my daughter about what was to come in the following days.
Then the first day came and I wasn’t ready, it had come to quick and all of my planning and prep-work was pointless for what happened. The moment my daughter let go of my hand, gave me a kiss goodbye, said her sweet “I love you” and went into her class without a care. It was the proudest, most terrifying moment i ever had because my little girl was no longer a tiny little newborn, nor was she the toe eating toddler. In that moment she became a full blown kid, and I couldn’t have been prouder or more emotional. It was scary because she is my other half we do everything together, she’s my partner in fun.
I held back my tears as best as I could, but they quietly rolled down my face until I got into my car. Where I boohoo cried like she just went off to war, I couldn’t comprehend that this was the beginning of her life without me. After a good 20 minutes of heavy duty crying, I finally built up the courage to wipe my face and drive home. Big Step Right? Then I started to think about my amazing daughter and I realized that this was the best thing I could have done for her. She will not only learn independence; She will learn friendship, socialization, respect for other authority figures and self reliance.
So thank you to those millions of people who told me to send her to Pre-K. It will be great and now I realize that even though not every day is great, the little moments she will successfully have because of Pre-k are.